No one is perfect!

So, I don't feel like posting everything on Myspace, I need a place just for me. And well, people I trust enough to let know about this site. I've been planning on doing this for a while...especially with Mike's upcoming deployment. I love to write, that's a known fact with anyone that really knows me. If you didn't know that writing was one of my passions then you need to stop reading this now because apparantly you don't know me well enough to care.
Those who know me know I'm a very loving, caring, stubborn, somewhat conceited, want things my way kind of girl. I may not be the prettiest of them all (hell, I can name 10 wonderful women off the top of my head that are far more beautiful than I) I also may not be the smartest girl (duh) and I sure as hell don't have any common sense...(it's sad really) but I am ME.
I love with my whole heart and I will give those I love the world...sometimes people choose not to see that or believe I am playing "favorites" That isn't the case. I am there for people through everything only if I know that they will be there for me in my darkest moments. With that trait comes a lot of pain. When I can't do for someone that really needs me it breaks my heart. I feel as if I'm not doing all that I can, even if I am doing all I can within my capabilities. Yes, I know sometimes it isn't enough! For that I apologize. I wish it was. Yes, I know that sometimes my bitchiness comes out at times when it really shouldn't but who's doesn't? I can't be positive all the time. Sometimes anger and frustration's come out at the wrong person. Sometimes it is friends, sometimes it's family...I hate that about myself. However, if I say something, I mean it, but not in the way it always comes out. That doesn't make any sense I know but if I say one thing it may come out totally different than the way it was intended. I'm sarcastic and even the words "I love you and I'm sorry" can come out terribly wrong. It's not an excuse for what I do, I don't want people to think that it is...it is just simply ME.
I'm not a hateful person...I hate when people are angry at me, I hate people disliking me. I strive to make everyone smile, but people seem to forget that sometimes I have anger, resentment, exhaustion, or stress. I'm not perfect! Sometimes I do lose my cool. I HATE IT! I hate how I feel now for being angry and tired. I acted in a way that I'm not proud of but yet I still got out some pent up feelings. I hurt someone I love though, and that sucks. I was hurt also though. However, I must say, NO ONE IS PERFECT! Everyone has their quirks, their "bad" traits, things in the past they're not proud of etc. But guess what? A person cannot control everything. But, I wouldn't change anything about myself. If I did then I wouldn't be me. I kindof like Me! Quite frankly, I don't care if people like me or not. Those who love me can look past my bad points and notice the good.
I'm done changing for other people, just not my thing anymore. I refuse to let anyone else knock me down. I don't care if it's my husband, family members, friends, or some person on the street. I want to be happy, I deserve to be happy. End of story.
If you don't like what I have to say then don't listen, don't read. It won't hurt my feelings any.